Coming to a new city was always like that time bomb just waiting to explode...There was not a single day when i didn't cry or whine about the inevitable. Daily a new bucket list was made.List if things to shop, things to eat before i leave and people to meet...
I didn't know what i would miss the most. so i did everything i could..furiously wanting to live every moment and making as many memories possible.After each moment there was sadness of it being the last time.....
Once i came to new city something different happened.
First few days were spent getting to know the vegetable vendor,Milkman,the paper guy and all the basic essentials needed to stay afloat. once the essentials were taken care off. it was pretty much smooth sailing.Life had settled down. all the upheaval was over. life was back on its own track and that was the time i had finally settled in...
the joy of finally settling in was amazing. a kind of relief i guess. But what was surprising was the fact that i still wasn't happy!!!!
Before i came i was worried about things i miss. but contrary to that i miss the person i used to be...
i miss the life had. maybe i miss the independence or the go getter feeling
perhaps i miss my precious friends.I miss the fact that even my smile or lack of it would be noticed or the habit of irritated blabber when stupid things happened.
Guess the only thing i need to find in this city is MYSELF...
and then only this remains to say In life, “Everything you do will define you."
hon, this too shall pass. You will know more about yourself. Hugs ..
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