Every disappointment in life

Sometimes we humans do things that hurt others. Not hurt rather scar them for life.

Human relationships is so fragile that you never know what act of yours might end up hurting others.

I wonder when did we get this complicated. We are all born with the right instincts and are showered with lots of love.

I wouldn't have believed it if I hadn't experienced it myself. My one year old nephew knew when I was upset and left his toys to come and console me. He ran and brought out a plate to share what he was eating when he heard that his grand mom was hungry. All this when she wasn't even telling him that she was hungry,she was just speaking to my brother about it.

While we teach the baby not to spit, while we protect him from getting hurt somewhere we end up teaching the wrong things. Somewhere when being taught the words we lose the way to express our feelings.

While we learn the ways of society behavior we lose our right to express our hurt and suffer silently.

Many times we think our close circle, our family and friends would never understand us and we suffer silently. I am the silent types too. I rather suffer alone than express what I am going through. Just the thought of me speaking about my feelings, my sufferings scares me like hell. So I just shut up and let the world think that I am doing great. That's my flaw and my strength too. Because I dont trust people to listen to me, I listen to them. I also remember what I listen. My biggest fear is ending up with a life partner who wouldn't listen to me or one who judges me for who I am.

I dont want a relationship where people dont tell each other everything. And even if they tell they are not listened to well. 

Every disappointment in life leads you to lessons and here are the lessons I learnt:

1) We cant accept lies (mis constructed truth or whatever you say between people who are meant to be trusted for life.

2) your worst fears might get to you in unaccepted ways.

3) It is so not very difficult to express your anger or love. saying sorry is the easiest part. Give others the chance to either understand you or not. Dont conclude that the other person might not understand without giving them a chance.

c you till next time