Yes tiered with life.
No I am not depressed, neither am i suicidal.
Nope i haven't done any huge physical work like plowing,plumbing or breaking stones.
No i have not worked out crazy in gym to say that i am tiered.
Yet i am tiered of this life. Tiered of the so called adult metropolitan life.
To believe or not to believe.
Follow religion or stop following because the religious rules are outdated and illogical?
Does God really exists or is he nowhere but just in you?
Is there really something called as fate and destiny
Do we love someone or not. Should i trust what i know as true or should i judge the person based on XYZ perception of who a person really is?
Should i enjoy the luxury of shopping malls and be miserable or save money and not worry?
Should i worry that i am not married or should be happy that i am single
should marry just because i am getting old and because it is a mandate that every girl should be married to have a good life.
should i marry someone just because our so called horoscopes match or should I marry someone because I know that person,I understand that person, I love him and have 100% faith that we will lead an amazing life
should i be calm thinking i will be happy in future or be miserable by taking the wrong decision now.
should i believe in astrology or pray to god to keep me safe.
should i run behind a person who I know loves me a lot or simply wait and watch till he gets married to someone else.
is my career going in right direction or should i simply start looking for a new job (this is after i recently joined a new job)
is there really something called past life and re-birth?
to love or to trust? to doubt or to be sure?
am i smart or am i dumb?
Trust me it is a horrible phase right now... every single person i meet is simply messing with me. It is like i am in a mixie and everyone is simply pushing buttons and making a milkshake out of me.
Wait milkshakes are tasty right , no everyone is making a neem chutney out of my life.
Someone says everything is junk,simply go for what you want. and yet someone says it is all god's will and when time is right everything will fall into place. Hell what do i do, if i do what i am supposed to do i am clueless and stuck.If i simply sit and wait I am again clueless of what is going on in my life.
to make sense of my life, if ask questions i am met with stony silence or the worst ever possible answer "SIMPLY" which indirectly means i do not want to give any explanations. Now because of this if someone asks me any question i dont have any answers to give. because i really have no idea of whats going on!!!!
Sorry i simply have to vent it out... I may sound like an arrogant bitch who is complaining about life when there are people who dont even have a single proper meal daily. I am speaking as though i have tons of burdens. Its just that i have no idea of how to deal with my life.
I am even scared to have a dream for myself, tiered of walking with a mask on, tiered of putting on a brave front and acting that things will fall into place eventually. Tiered of being numb and building walls around me so that i may somehow pass the day and fall asleep.
Now if atleast i would believe in GOD I may have the option of blaming him for all my problems, but i cant even do that because if i believe in god then i would have to pray to him for helping me solve my problems which is not happening either...you see what i mean now,of being in a mixie and becoming a neem chutney...Phewwww!!!!
and of course i cant help it if you are tiered after reading such a lengthy rant..all i can say is pray for me or maybe send me some positive vibes or simply do whatever you think will help (yea i mean like you can send me some pizzaaa, ok don't send me pizza then i simply have to spend more energy in whether i should eat it or not eat it...)
yeeeeeeeeeeeeeoooooiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ................. screaming to vent out , this is my blog i can write anything I want and you are not supposed to judge me and who are these stupid people who keep visiting my blog,reading and go off without even leaving a comment. Very bad people i say, I know of at-least two people who stalk me through my blog and yet haven't ever posted a single comment, well this post is for one of that stupid person.....As for others thank a lot for giving me your valuable time and as always your suggestions are most welcome :)
No I am not depressed, neither am i suicidal.
Nope i haven't done any huge physical work like plowing,plumbing or breaking stones.
No i have not worked out crazy in gym to say that i am tiered.
Yet i am tiered of this life. Tiered of the so called adult metropolitan life.
To believe or not to believe.
Follow religion or stop following because the religious rules are outdated and illogical?
Does God really exists or is he nowhere but just in you?
Is there really something called as fate and destiny
Do we love someone or not. Should i trust what i know as true or should i judge the person based on XYZ perception of who a person really is?
Should i enjoy the luxury of shopping malls and be miserable or save money and not worry?
Should i worry that i am not married or should be happy that i am single
should marry just because i am getting old and because it is a mandate that every girl should be married to have a good life.
should i marry someone just because our so called horoscopes match or should I marry someone because I know that person,I understand that person, I love him and have 100% faith that we will lead an amazing life
should i be calm thinking i will be happy in future or be miserable by taking the wrong decision now.
should i believe in astrology or pray to god to keep me safe.
should i run behind a person who I know loves me a lot or simply wait and watch till he gets married to someone else.
is my career going in right direction or should i simply start looking for a new job (this is after i recently joined a new job)
is there really something called past life and re-birth?
to love or to trust? to doubt or to be sure?
am i smart or am i dumb?
Trust me it is a horrible phase right now... every single person i meet is simply messing with me. It is like i am in a mixie and everyone is simply pushing buttons and making a milkshake out of me.
Wait milkshakes are tasty right , no everyone is making a neem chutney out of my life.
Someone says everything is junk,simply go for what you want. and yet someone says it is all god's will and when time is right everything will fall into place. Hell what do i do, if i do what i am supposed to do i am clueless and stuck.If i simply sit and wait I am again clueless of what is going on in my life.
to make sense of my life, if ask questions i am met with stony silence or the worst ever possible answer "SIMPLY" which indirectly means i do not want to give any explanations. Now because of this if someone asks me any question i dont have any answers to give. because i really have no idea of whats going on!!!!
Sorry i simply have to vent it out... I may sound like an arrogant bitch who is complaining about life when there are people who dont even have a single proper meal daily. I am speaking as though i have tons of burdens. Its just that i have no idea of how to deal with my life.
I am even scared to have a dream for myself, tiered of walking with a mask on, tiered of putting on a brave front and acting that things will fall into place eventually. Tiered of being numb and building walls around me so that i may somehow pass the day and fall asleep.
Now if atleast i would believe in GOD I may have the option of blaming him for all my problems, but i cant even do that because if i believe in god then i would have to pray to him for helping me solve my problems which is not happening either...you see what i mean now,of being in a mixie and becoming a neem chutney...Phewwww!!!!
and of course i cant help it if you are tiered after reading such a lengthy rant..all i can say is pray for me or maybe send me some positive vibes or simply do whatever you think will help (yea i mean like you can send me some pizzaaa, ok don't send me pizza then i simply have to spend more energy in whether i should eat it or not eat it...)
yeeeeeeeeeeeeeoooooiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ................. screaming to vent out , this is my blog i can write anything I want and you are not supposed to judge me and who are these stupid people who keep visiting my blog,reading and go off without even leaving a comment. Very bad people i say, I know of at-least two people who stalk me through my blog and yet haven't ever posted a single comment, well this post is for one of that stupid person.....As for others thank a lot for giving me your valuable time and as always your suggestions are most welcome :)
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